Yesterday we said our goodbyes....... dad looked good, he would have been happy, we could only see the head and neck as his cancer mass was still leaking fluid and was laying on towels etc..... dad is getting cremated at 2pm today, I will be lighting a candle and reflecting on dad and life......
Chris and Izzy came and stayed the night, they are heading back to Auckland later this morning....
Tomorrow I start getting into my new routine of life, not video calling dad everyday, will leave an empty place.... I have been calling him daily for 20 years pretty much and video chatting daily for the the last 5 years, as he got sicker the times he would ring would be anytime between 9am and 12pm, so I would be waiting around for his video chats everyday, cause I know how much he looked forward to them......
My uncles funeral is tomorrow in Hamilton, its going to be very small, I am not going, I just can't do it, but my sister and family are going.....
Anyway might be back or later or maybe not....
That will be an enormous change in your daily life Jaxx... Be positive and use the time wisely. You will now be free to go for walks or even travel a little more. What a wonderful daughter you were to your father :)
ReplyDeleteYeah, going to start back at the gym, as I will drop Isaac off and go to the pool/gym on the way home.....
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