I have never been so angry as what I am feeling for the last 24 hours, everyone knew I was going to the family home for the last time yesterday.... Chris was awesome, he checked in with me a couple of times..... David did as well, but my daughter who thinks of no-one but herself has not even asked how the day went.... in fact I have had no communication with her at all..... I am so hurt and angry with her right now.... She got Dad's car for free and it's a pigsty, her rego has run out a few days ago and have reminded her every day to get it sorted, she said she would last night, don't know if she has..... I am now going to put the car under her name, (it was in mine), and I will pay this month's insurance and then she can start paying it, and she can get her own contacts (eyes) - now as well, which I have been paying. After this last incident I am over it. I will do anything for the kids and her partner but not her. By not asking me how I am has hurt so much....... yet she was able to go out with her friend for however long, left the kids with their dad... When I got back Isaac came for a visit to give his dad a break..... oh and I started crying and Isaac goes "its ok Oma, just think of the good times" such a sweet boy.
Yesterday was so hard, I went into every room said my goodbyes and then locked up with the key inside, so I could no longer go back in and burst into tears and sat in the car and just cried and cried...... and cried all the way home..... the lounge-suite is here with a couple of other things....
Today I am feeling better, not great but better, I also removed dad's phone number of my phone, its time for me to let it go and just enjoy the happy memories we had in the house, and also deleted the KatiKati weather app.... I am now going to remove myself of the KatKati facebook pages......
Isaac I think is staying the night tonight, he only has this week and next week for kindy, then she has to get her shit together... and get him to school I will do the odd drop off but she can do the majority of drop offs and pick ups. She has to learn to be a parent and I need to start backing off.
Anyway catch you later....
Well that didn't go quite as planned, went to get Isaac for kindy, and because of his nose, we decided to keep him home, so he is here for the day.... and night. Anyway I had it out with Steph about how I felt and she lost it with me and turned it around to be all about her once again, how tired she was and how she hasn't slept for 2 days etc - yeah well its called parenting.... oh and his nose is all red and sore from where he has been picking it, a tic maybe nervous for school maybe who knows...... lets take a guess on how long before she will talk to me.... I am justy an emotional mess......
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