6 Days Till Settlement, and Last Day of July.....

 Can't believe another month has passed by, this time next week, it will be settlement day - and August tomorrow, which means on Monday it will be 9 months since dad has gone.....

Today's plans having brunch with a friend and not much else is going on.... oh need to pick up my script. 

I was awake at 4am again this morning, last night I was in bed at 6.30pm, tonight I am going to try and stay up till 8pm, until I can get to a bed time of 9pm like a normal person, and hopefully wake up about 5.30 - 6am :)

Brunch was nice, we went to Palmers cafe and then I purchased this handbag in their shop. Brunch was nice :). 

I love handbags especially crossbody, at least this one was relatively cheap :)

Day has been so so, have had a headache most of the afternoon, think it is stress, only one more week, then we can really say it's over.....

Catch you tomorrow :)

7 Days Till Settlement....

Well here are again, woke up at 4am, stayed in bed till 5am, hoping to fall back asleep but nope.....

Todays plans, have Eli for a couple of hours (hopefully), then not much today, moving furniture around yesterday has made me a bit sore lol.

And thats it for me..... for now :)

Well not a lot has happened, no school for Isaac (don't ask), so he came and spent some time with me while mum had an appointment. 

Been pottering and thats about it.

Day has ended good, not much more has happened...

Got our deposit back for the Toyota RAV4 so thats good.

Not a lot else to say, catch you all tomorrow :) 

8 Days Until Settlement...

For the first time in what seems like weeks, I am feeling ok, ok is better than what I have been feeling for a long time now.... just maybe I am turning a corner. 

Today's plans to have Eli for a bit...... I feel really lost without spending time with kiddo's but now Isaac has settled in school a bit, and I am no longer feeling like crap, mentally and sick wise, time to enjoy the kiddo's on my terms. 

Not much else to report at this time of the morning :).

This morning I have spent doing housework as well as moving some stuff around :). Hope to get Eli soon, am sitting here with all the doors open, getting some fresh air, the joys of thermal heating :). 

Issac had a good drop off, so thats good 3/5 days at school this week :). 

Went and visited Eli, and stayed for a while there, he will come tomorrow for a couple of hours.

Well the day has gone really cold, so shut all the curtains and warming up the house again, after all the doors were open for most of the day.

Not much else to report, so catch you all tomorrow :)

9 Days Till Settlement - And Haircut...

Finally getting my hair cut and bleached today, it feels like it's been forever.... am not sure how much longer I will bleach it for or leave it natural grey lol. I am pretty sure I will do one more bleach for summer, depending if she can fit me in or not before Christmas, otherwise it will be just a cut :). 

I slept in till 5.30am, but had been awake quite a bit through the night - hopefully once dad's house is settled, I will start to get some better sleep. 

Last week of July only one month till Spring, give or take a few days :). 

Oh a couple of people have asked why I didn't go full electric for our car, because I would struggle with owning an electric car, I just don't think it's for me... hybrids are a nice in between... I don't want to have to stop and charge up on a long trip, if I ever did get an electric car it would be a Tesla, and I don't like them at all. Here in Rotorua I have seen people cueing for the chargers, so don't know what the rest of New Zealand would be like. 

Another topic is weight loss injections, I have nothing against them, and possibly may try them at some stage but again right now, it's not something I want to try yet.... My weight loss is very very slow, but as long as I don't put it all back on, I will keep doing what I am doing, I am hopefully going back to the pool next week and thinking once my pool concession finishes I might pay their weekly fee and that includes the smaller gym they have as well. The last 12 months have been the hardest I have ever had and am glad I didn't gain any weight during this time, in fact I am still down a few kilos. 

Well change of hair plans, it was to short to bleach my hair, so we have come up with a plan, we will do a rotation of every 6 months will be a cut and bleach and three monthly in between will be just a cut. I don't want to damage my hair with bleaching over bleach. 

So this is todays result, I really like it :).

10 Days Till Settlement - and Hopefully Good News And....

Hopefully today I will find out if I will get one of the two Honda CR-V Hybrid X's available in New Zealand. I will hopefully get it through the Tauranga Branch, and if he can get me one, I will pay the deposit, and it will be ready for me in about 2 weeks. Otherwise the next shipment is due in about 2 months...

Oh woke up at 5.15am so thats a bonus, just finished cleaning the kitchen my Monday jobs :). 

I miscalculated the days till settlement, it is in fact 10 days today, as I was counting Friday as the final day, but in fact Friday next week is the day what I am going to call Day 0 lol. 

Today's plans not much, yesterday was the day I actually felt ok most of the day, I am not going to risk getting sick again for my hair appointment tomorrow.

This week will be Isaac's first full week at school, if he goes everyday.... hmmm lets see what happens. 

Its a little frosty out there, in fact it's 0 degrees :). 

Back later :)

Well this morning has spent being on the phone for over 3 hours, doing stuff for dad's house. 

Good news this little beauty is mine....

Have paid the deposit, will be ready on the 9th August for pick up :), got the Silver one. 

Baby sat this little munchkin today for about an hour...

He loves to climb..... I am feeling better enough to start looking after Eli and he is a bit better, still very croupy though. Thinking of taking him to the library play group on Wednesday morning. 

Anyway thats me for today, catch you all tomorrow :).

12 Days Till Settlement...

Yip still counting down and will be counting down everyday till we hit Day 0 :). My niece went and said her goodbyes to the house yesterday, my sister and other niece will be going late next week or the week after. 

Been awake since 4.30am... feeling ok, I really want to get my hair done on Tuesday, I am sure I am not contagious anymore, its more just an annoying cough. The appointment is in the morning :).

Plans today, grocery shopping and think thats about it.

Back later :)

Groceries done and apart from that not much else has happened, just looking outside and it's 5.30pm and it is still light outside. 

Today has been relaxing kind off, definitely feeling better :)

Catch you tomorrow :)  

13 Days Till Settlement.....

Well another day has gone and we are now down to less than 2 weeks for settlement on dad's house. On Monday I can start saying next week...

Can't wait for Tuesday, getting my hair bleached and cut again. 

I have been awake since 4am, just couldn't sleep, then tossed and turned about decisions on the car.

Today maybe groceries, and also going to be researching the pro's and con's of both cars we test drove yesterday.

Feeling much better this morning, just an annoying cough now, and a slight headache, but think that is cause the house is to hot....

Oh Isaac had a good day at school, so that was good :).

Back later...

Well decision made, we are going to purchase the Honda CR-V Hybrid X..... it doesn't have as many bells and whistles as the RAV4, but maybe thats not a bad thing - we decided comfort over a lot of extra's...

There are 2 available in NZ, that I can find online, so maybe we can get one of those, would like the blue but not going to be to fussy.... there is a blue one in Wellington area, and a silver one in Taupo.... hope to find out more next week. 

Today has been ok, as per usual as the day went on the worse I felt....

Going to bed soon, waking up at 4am makes it a long day.

Catch you all tomorrow.

14 Days Till Settlement.....

Hmmmmm still debating, I really really really really want the RAV4, but I have no patience.... but then again is it worth the wait. I think it might be, I can't get this decision out of my head. If we are well enough, we still might go to Honda and check the Honda's out in Tauranga tomorrow, Honda Rotorua have offered us the two cars we are looking at for overnight testing, on Monday and Tuesday night. 

Anyway today's plans, try and fix the bathroom plug, we have one of those pop up ones, and it's jammed down whoops..... tried nearly every trick I have learn't from youtube, but it's really jammed double whoops.

David came home from work early yesterday and staying home today, I am still sick... but better. 

I am thinking I may wait for the RAV4, I think I will regret it otherwise.... but will see after we have checked out the Honda's decisions decisions....

Wonder if Isaac will be going to school today...... I am keeping out of it now...... 

Anyway back later...

I am now considering getting a RAV4 2025 model..... most of them have 20,000 - 30,000 kms and are about $6000 - $8000 cheaper than the 2026 model, but at least it is available now. 

Isaac got to school ok, well not ok, cried but at least he went. 

Ok no go for a 2025 RAV4, to many things missing from the 2026 models for a small price difference.

David and I took two cars for a test drive, one being the Hinda ZR-V Hybrid LX and the other being the Honda CR-V Hybrid X both 2026 models, we loved the both but the CR-V Hybrid X was more comfortable, and not quite so loud.... now to research the pros and cons of both and make a decision next week. 

15 days till Settlement.....

 15 days till settlement....

Have woken up sick still, in fact I am feeling worse gggrrr.....

Going to rest as much as I can today, I need to make sure I am better for my hairdresser appointment on Tuesday, OMG I can't wait to get my hair cut and bleached again. 

Back later :)

I must not, I must not, I must not put nail extensions on, no  matter how short, I just ripped the last ones off....

I am so angry with Steph again, no school for Isaac, I am no longer going to have any input on her decisions anymore even though she is just being lazy. Yes Isaac is tired I get that but the first few weeks are important for school, to make connections and to learn routine...... GGGGGGrrrrrrrr

Well am rethinking the RAV4, as it will be early next year before I even get one (if Im Lucky).... my second option is a Honda SUV, am doing research on it now, Rotorua Honda is shut on Saturday's so want to see if David wants to go to Tauranga Honda to check them out and test drive one.... oh and they have them in stock, so could get it within a couple of weeks. 

Am feeling a little better.....but am feeling off.... think it's stress.

16 days till Settlement.... and bloody head cold...

16 days till settlement.....

Have woken up with my head throbbing, and like a croup cough, and a continuous dripping nose....yip I am feeling sorry for myself today. 

Emailed Toyota yesterday and no updates on the car so it will be months away I suppose :(.

Today I hope to make the banana cake.... but that will all depend on how the banana's are and how I feel....

Have a guy coming around this afternoon for a second quote on the fence and hopefully a small deck out there as well. 

Back later...

Gosh it is nice the days are longer, 5.40pm and it is still light outside....

Guy came for a fence quote, Isaac had another lovely day at school. 

My voice is nearly gone and still have a mild headache but apart from that I don't feel to bad. 

Didn't do banana cake the banana's were just to far gone.... oh well. 

Anyway catch you tomorrow. :)

17 days Until Settlement......

Am still feeling like crap..... David is still sick as.....

IndyCar will start around 6.30 - 7am ish.....

Isaac's first day at school today :(. 

And nothing else to say....

Isaac went to school happy as, and didn't cry, such a big brave boy - I am so proud of him.

David is still home today, I think I feel a fraction better, I watched the IndyCar, and now just relaxing for the rest of the day.

Isaac had an "awesome" day at school (his words lol), which is great, it was weird not doing drop off today, shame I was sick, am hoping by Thursday I will be well enough to go for a walk, David is going back to work tomorrow.

Will have to check the banana's and hopefully they will still be ok to make the cake tomorrow. 

We have a guy coming out tomorrow afternoon to give us a quote on the fence...

I am feeling better this afternoon, just the annoying cough now....

Anyway thats me catch you tomorrow :)

18 Days..... and yip sick.....

18 days till settlement day.....

Been up since 4am, laying down in bed made me nauseous.... sitting up right feels a little better. I have vomited as well. Don't think David will be going to work he is still pretty sick.

Not much more to say - IndyCar starts at 9.30am.... so that will be my morning.

Back later :).

Now I have been upright for a few hours, am feeling so much better. Did my Monday kitchen jobs..... and now waiting for IndyCar to start....

Well 2 hours later and Indycar is hopefully about to start, delayed cause of weather, well suppose thats my afternoon planned now. I am feeling heaps better right now.... lets hope it lasts, not seeing the grandkids today, can't afford to get Isaac sick with starting school tomorrow. I will have Eli for a short time, while Isaacs mum and dad do drop off. 

Well fuck that, racing has been postponed till tomorrow ggggggrrrrrrr

Nearly Over....

The coldest month of the year is over half way - thank god....

No school for Isaac on Monday, it is a teacher only day....

Just waiting till 7am, to watch IndyCar qualifying....

And then I will make the banana cake.... oh and we need to get groceries at some stage...

David is still sick, and I have woken up with a stuffed up nose, sore head and cough ggggrrrr....

Back later....

Not a lot more has happened, had a sleep and thats about it, thought I was sick but think I just overdid it yesterday and the pain has hit in my wrist especially and my knee....

Think it will be a real early night, so catch you all tomorrow. 

11 Things...

Today I have 11 things on my list - first up is cleaning the pantry and change the orange for the birdies :). Mowing the lawns will be later this morning, I want to be done by lunchtime for the list of things.... lest see how it goes, some will only take a minute or two, others will take an hour or two. 

Clean Pantry √

Organise a Quote for a Fence √

Make Banana Cake

Change Orange for Birdies √

Pick Lemons √

Mow Lawns √

Cardboard to Recycling √

Vacuum √

Mop Floors √

Deep Clean the Shower √

Find Soda Stream Bottles √

Whoops forgot to post the first post - 

Anyway pantry is done, only had to throw out a small rubbish bag of expired foods, after that I vacuumed. I am hot and sweaty, the next big job is the lawns will, do that about 10ish, or hopefully earlier, oh and found the soda stream bottles in the pantry yay another tick :) so 4/11 things done :).

5/11 things can not get the lawn mower to start so did the cardboard recycling, so thats a job done, going to try the lawn mower again in the minute..... then will deep clean the shower and then do the rest of the list, which are slightly easier jobs.

7/11 things done, mowed the lawns got Steph's partner to try start the lawnmower which he did first pop ggggrrrrr lol. Then deep cleaned the shower... might do banana cake tomorrow and mop the floors then as well. So today is pick the lemons, and email the fence person to get a quote. Oh and I need to fix a nail, it popped off when I was pulling the boxes apart - yeah should have used a knife or scissors...

Mopped the floors and picked the lemons, and sent an email to get another quote for the fence - so all I have left is fix my nail that can be done later or tomorrow, and will make banana cake tomorrow as well :). I feel good as those jobs I kept putting of to the next day and so on. 

Have all the doors open to help dry the floors and it feels a bit like a summer day :).

Fixed my nail, so tomorrow is make the banana cake and also watch IndyCar qualifying....

My back is sore, my knee is sore, and my wrist is sore, so thats me for today, catch you all tomorrow.

Please Let the Next 3 Weeks go Quick....

Am really hoping the next 3 weeks go quick..... it will be nice to have ending to this - settlement day for dad's house.

Todays plans:

Isaac's Kindy Goodbye

Cardboard Recycling

Pick the Lemons

Housework

Not much else planned for the day...

Ohhhh and OMG allergies are hitting me hard this week. 

Well still none of my list done, did my nails instead....

Isaac had his birthday goodbye at Kindy, I bawled my eyes out....I am so emotional lately, more than normal.....

Rusty is going for his monthly injection later this afternoon. 

Tomorrow is going to be the day I mow the lawns, do the pantry, and pick the lemons, and hopefully do the cardboard recycling..... David is working (I think, he was a bit sick this morning). 

Anyway am feeling exhausted, signing of for today...

Catch you all tomorrow :)

Getting Close.....

3 weeks tomorrow and the house sale will be done.....

I am knackered, think the anger I am holding onto is causing me issues, I need to let it go....

Not sure if Isaac will be going to kindy today, knowing Steph it will depend on when she wakes up. Fuck knows how she will go with school next week.

Today's plans...

Change the Orange for the Birdies :).

Take Cardboard to Recycling

Have Brunch with a Friend

Oh and Pick the Lemons

Finish the Housework (Have started some this morning).

Back later :)

No kindy for Isaac, he will go in tomorrow afternoon for his goodbyes, where they do a cardboard cake and sing him happy birthday etc...

No brunch either, I am quite tired so ok about that, will do it next week, when school is back etc.....

I have lots of little jobs that need doing....

Did I do my little jobs - nope, Isaac came for a visit :). 

Yay less than 2 weeks and I will get my hair cut bleached again, its later than normal, as my hairdresser has been on holiday, think she comes back next week. 

Got an email through from the lawyer, the lands agent has been paid, and the balance of the deposit has gone into the trust till the final payment on the 7th August. Just want it all over, time is going so slow.... wonder when I will get my new car, I am hoping by the end of September, but more realistically it will be prob October - December. God wouldn't it be amazing if it came in August....

Anyway catch you all tomorrow :)

Whoops..... and Happy 5th Birthday My Little Man...

 Didn't come back yesterday......

What got done bugga all from yesterday's list... I did pick up the cake, got the food for the little family party... was going to do cardboard but thought I would wait till after the birthday, as we will have more cardboard after that, so that will be tomorrow :). 

Happy Birthday Isaac, I love you so much and hope you enjoy your day :). 

So today, wrap presents, and pick the lemons.... oh and make the fairy bread. I am still angry with my daughter....

Feeling a bit sad today, ok a lot sad, Dad was so hoping to see Isaac turn 5, it was about the only goal he had left - he loved Isaac, and when Isaac chatted with him on video chat, he would bring the biggest smile to dad's face..... even when dad was in a lot of pain...

First thing on the agenda wrap those presents now....

Presents wrapped.... been out and got Isaac a couple more small presents... him and his friend have gone to 3D Mirage... and then will come here about 4ish for opening our presents and a early dinner :).

Its done and I am fucked.... next year Steph can organise and pay for it, I have done it since the Isaac was one.... I am two old for this.... I just want to relax and enjoy it.....

Anyway tomorrow I am meeting a friend, for a morning tea/early lunch maybe... oh and apparently I am dropping Isaac off at kindy tomorrow, would have been nice to be asked rather than being taken for granted.....

Isaac had a good time, so thats the main thing.....

Oh and what peeved me off the most was that Steph and David were on their phones nearly the whole time, that really fucks me off, the kids dad wasn't. Steph was doing her bloody grocery order, as if she didn't have all day to do it.

Anyway getting off here before I really rant lol.

Catch you tomorrow :)

Tuesday.... (In case you didn't know)....

What will today bring, maybe do the lawns if it doesn't rain...

Wrap Isaac presents....

Take Cardboard to Recycling...

Ohhhh Pick Lemons....

Grocery Shop for Isaac's Birthday...

Order Cake...

And thats all on the agenda...

A New Week, and My Little Grandchild Turns 5......

I love my little man so much and don't want him to grow up....

Anyway a new week, 3 weeks on Friday and the house sale will be finalised....

Today need to drop the Toyota Corolla, off for a service, have ordered a courtesy car,  but first I need to drop David off at the mechanics, they have had his car since Wednesday for stuff to fix to pass a WOF....

Then I want to change some stuff around, I am still not happy with, but not sure how to change it.....

And thats it for now...

Well the day has gone quick, Isaac came for a couple of hours - I dropped off David to get his car, took the Corolla in for a service, and the loaner car I got was a 2026 Lexus, and thought hmmm do I want the Rav4 still?, then I saw the price of the Lexus and decided the Rav4 was a better option, the price for the Lexus, was way out of my price range lol. 

Anyway a rough day with Steph, it can never go smoothly in her life, though most of it is self inflicted, and she is still my daughter. Looks like if Isaac wants to have somewhat of a birthday I am going to be organising and paying for it. Bloody fuming but........ going to wrap his presents tonight.

Catch you all tomorrow....

No Nope IndyCar.......

Well got up really early for IndyCar, but it's next weekend gggggrrrrr, it was to bloody cold out there to get up from the nice warm bed... 

Today's plans not much, well none that I can think off...... might get Isaac around.

Can't believe that Isaac is starting school one week tomorrow.... I really hope he settles in... I am not going to lie I am stressed about it.....

Anyway thats me for now... Back later :)

Isaac came for a bit, well a few hours.. it was nice :).

After that I swept out the back area, and listening to all the birds :). I then cleaned out the laundry, you have to go outside to the laundry which is fine, you can walk under cover, but as it is not part of the house, it tends to get neglected :). I also swept out the thermal pool area, plan to start using it again as my knee and wrist is feeling the cold :). 

Made Macaroni cheese for dinner, just need to heat it up. So thats today and tomorrow nights dinner done :). 

Next weeks goal, is to clean out and wipe down the pantry, mow the lawns, celebrate Isaac's birthday on Wednesday.... and not sure what else, after the school holidays the following week, might go for a drive to the Mount beach :). Wow it feels weird having no grandchildren commitments.... oh and clean the inside of the car :). 

Anyway prob wont be back today, so catch you all tomorrow :)

GGGGRRRRRR.....

I am having one of those clumsy mornings..... where I am dropping everything and just being clumsy.... my wrist hurts that I had reconstructive surgery from a previous botched surgery, and it's full of arthritis....... and my knee is hurting.....

Today our plans are going to Tauranga and meeting Davids sister and brother in law for lunch, I feel like I need to start getting a life again... we need to be back by 5pm for rugby. 

Today I am going to take some photos of the inside of the house and put in AI for some inspiration....

This time in 4 weeks, we (my sister and I), will no longer be the owners of dad's house... wonder how long it will take to get my RAV4, would love it before Christmas but who knows.... I don't have patience, but know in the long run it will be worth the wait. 

Anyway back later 

OMG I had one of the bestest days, we went to Tauranga and went out for lunch with brother and sister in law,  then went to her house to see the new house after the fire.... over a year ago.....

I did my makeup, dressed up and did something with my hair, that desperately needs a bleach, which will be happening at the end of the month, my hairdresser has been away on holiday, and I felt good. They even noticed my weight loss :), its been about a year since I saw them. 

I am now home, makeup removed and in PJ's, David is watching the Rugby and I am watching Youtube :). 

Thats me for today, going to make a light dinner and then to bed later :)

A Long Weekend....

Man we had some wind last night, it was out the back where we don't normally get wind.... and by my bedroom.... so not the best sleep...

We have a long weekend here this weekend - Matariki - is the Māori name for the Pleiades star cluster, which heralds the Māori New Year (te Mātahi o te Tau). The rising of the cluster in midwinter marks a time to honor the dead, celebrate the present, and plan for the year ahead. Yip copied that from google :). 

Plans for today, groceries maybe... and not sure what else :). 

Groceries done, we went to the bakery just down the road, and got some food for breakfast.....

I have been gaming and thinking about plans, once Isaac is starts school - what my mornings will be with no longer doing drop offs....(more on that tomorrow).

Tomorrow we are planning to do something or go away for the day, - just to get out. 

Bloody Dogs.....

Here was me excited for my sleep.....David and I sleep in different rooms, he snores to much, and I listen to radio at night and that annoys him - so the dogs normally sleep with him, well him being away last night, the dogs slept with me.... and OMG they are pain in the butt, Sooty was beside herself cause her dad was not there..... kept getting up and down, waiting for him to come home. Anyway he is due back this afternoon....

I was going to clean the inside of the car today, well that won't be happening... it's pissing down with rain.... so will be another relaxing time watching Netflix I think. Think I will tidy the hall cupboards some time today they have turned into junk cupboards again.... 

Catch you later :)

A New Day.....

A new day, Isaac stayed the night, he shares my bed and loves it :), I will drop him of at kindy soon.

David has gone to Hamilton for some work thing, he will be staying overnight. I am so looking forward to some me time, after kindy drop off. Things are still pretty tense between Steph and I. I am so tired emotionally and have had Isaac here pretty much since Monday when I said goodbye to the house, I am feeling a little better, slowly getting there....

I need to get a couple more birthday presents for Isaac after drop off, think I have them all then, and think thats my plans for the day, have done housework this morning, so thats all done. 

Dinner I am going to get Butter Prawns, there is this place in Rotorua who makes the most beautiful Butter Prawns :).

Anyway back later...

Dropped Isaac off, he did not want to go to kindy :(. But I really needed some time out by myself....

I have been cleaning up my craft/nail stuff and gaming area as I had rearranged everything the other day but did not have time to tidy it all properly. Just got to finish the nail table then all done. I am sitting here just enjoying the Tui's eating their orange :). 

I also told Steph I will no longer do regular drop offs, once Isaac starts school, school is only a km away, but will do them if someone is sick or when they can't for whatever reason. Her and her partner had already worked out how it is going to work, so my pool time/exercise time won't be controlled by drop off's anymore. Thats a huge relief...

Finally a day without stress...... I am feeling pretty relaxed.... tomorrow I am going to start planning my weeks, exercise wise..... Oh and didn't get my butter prawns, maybe my lunch tomorrow :). 

Anyway looking forward to just relax for another hour or so and then prob go to bed :). 

Catch you tomorrow :)

Angry..... RANT....

I have never been so angry as what I am feeling for the last 24 hours, everyone knew I was going to the family home for the last time yesterday.... Chris was awesome, he checked in with me a couple of times..... David did as well, but my daughter who thinks of no-one but herself has not even asked how the day went.... in fact I have had no communication with her at all..... I am so hurt and angry with her right now.... She got Dad's car for free and it's a pigsty, her rego has run out a few days ago and have reminded her every day to get it sorted, she said she would last night, don't know if she has..... I am now going to put the car under her name, (it was in mine), and I will pay this month's insurance and then she can start paying it, and she can get her own contacts (eyes) - now as well, which I have been paying. After this last incident I am over it. I will do anything for the kids and her partner but not her. By not asking me how I am has hurt so much....... yet she was able to go out with her friend for however long, left the kids with their dad... When I got back Isaac came for a visit to give his dad a break..... oh and I started crying and Isaac goes "its ok Oma, just think of the good times" such a sweet boy. 

Yesterday was so hard, I went into every room said my goodbyes and then locked up with the key inside, so I could no longer go back in and burst into tears and sat in the car and just cried and cried...... and cried all the way home..... the lounge-suite is here with a couple of other things....

Today I am feeling better, not great but better, I also removed dad's phone number of my phone, its time for me to let it go and just enjoy the happy memories we had in the house, and also deleted the KatiKati weather app.... I am now going to remove myself of the KatKati facebook pages......

Isaac I think is staying the night tonight, he only has this week and next week for kindy, then she has to get her shit together... and get him to school I will do the odd drop off but she can do the majority of drop offs and pick ups. She has to learn to be a parent and I need to start backing off. 

Anyway catch you later....

Well that didn't go quite as planned, went to get Isaac for kindy, and because of his nose, we decided to keep him home, so he is here for the day.... and night. Anyway I had it out with Steph about how I felt and she lost it with me and turned it around to be all about her once again, how tired she was and how she hasn't slept for 2 days etc - yeah well its called parenting.... oh and his nose is all red and sore from where he has been picking it, a tic maybe nervous for school maybe who knows...... lets take a guess on how long before she will talk to me.... I am just an emotional mess......

A Tough Day Ahead....

I am not looking forward to today, I am scared saying goodbye to the family home, but I need to put my big girl pants on and do it. Then I have no further commitments...... so time to focus on me.... and start renovating the house bit by bit.... my stomach is going around in knots.

Oh and did I remove my nails?, well yes kind off, I ripped the bloody extensions off and now they are a little sore.... am not going to put anything on them for a week or two.....

IndyCar is on so got up at 4.30am to watch it, it finishes at 7am and will leave about 8.30ish.... 

Time for me to set some goals, I no longer need to go to KatiKati again after today..... Goals will come under the categories, of 

ME: Health - Food/Exercise

HOUSE: Kitchen/Curtains/Painting

NAILS: Start Building up the Business

GARDENS: Tidy Veggie Boxes/Work on Flower Gardens

GARAGE: Declutter/Tidy/Set Up Exercise Area (Hopefully)

On a positive Spring is in 8 weeks time :)

Anyway catch you when I get back home.....

Today was rough, rougher than I ever expected.....

Catch you tomorrow :(

Seeing the SOLD sign....

Seeing the sold sign on the internet hit me like a ton of bricks on the lands agent site....

Less than 5 weeks till takeover....

Anyway onto today, going to get groceries at some stage, then remove my nails, have pulled two off, so need to get them off before I pull the rest off....

Currently watching IndyCar qualifying.... well was hoping to, but they have thunder there, so it's delayed they have to have 30 minutes of no thunder to continue..... ggggrrrr

My knee that needs a replacement is a little sore so I am going to go on 3 x 10 minute or so walk for next week, I have also heard the best time to walk is after a meal, so am going to try that as well.... If I do more but shorter walks throughout the day at least I will be close to home if it gives out.... It was really sore a couple of years ago, but has been pretty good since then - I know it's the cold weather trigging it. 

We are thinking about getting a treadmill but who knows where we will put it..... after  takeover of dad's house etc, we are going to get a mini-skip bin and have a huge clean out and hopefully we can set up a small gym area in the garage. That would be perfect, we would have a treadmill, free weights, a bench and some sort of cable machine....

Anyway back later....

I am getting some furniture from Dad's house, like the lounge suite, a rug and a single bed.... for Steph, that is happening tomorrow lunchtime ish, we are getting the same people that picked up the china cabinets from the house, I will then leave the key behind, and that will be the last time I go in the house.

Have been moving lots of things around, we are going to keep our lounge suite and put it in the sunroom.....and using the two lazy-boys in the gaming area..... for now anyway....

I am feeling really emotional, knowing that this is the last time in the family home that my parents built, with some help from my Opa from Holland, when he came out to stay for a few months.... the rest of the furniture are going to the new buyers, they were happy to keep it, there is still some beautiful furniture there, so am glad they are keeping it, and really appreciate that we have given it to them. It was built in the late 70's.... over 50 years :(. 

Anyway thats me for today, I will be leaving about 8.30am tomorrow. 

Tauranga Maybe.....

We were going to go to Hamilton today but the Zenders Cafe has a huge event on at lunchtime, though the cafe will still be open they said parking is very limited and really only for the event. so we might go to Tauranga instead..... or may not lol. 

Poor Eli has been up all night with croup....

And thats about all I have for now...

Didn't end up going to Tauranga, it was to bloody cold and foggy. Isaac came for part of the day..... Eli went to after-hours care, his croup was not settling, so he was given steroids, hopefully he will better by tomorrow.... poor baby has not slept for at least 24 hours.

Didn't do to much else.....

Today's Plans..... and 8 months....

Today's plan is to go to Tauranga to the lawyers, we are doing all the paperwork then, so will only need this one appointment.... and won't need to go back just before settlement day. 

Today is now 8 months since dad left us...it still is not an easy time for me. 

Might do a bit of shopping after that, or might come straight home, I think it will be an emotional day.....

David has Saturday off, so we might go to Hamilton and go to the Dutch cafe there 'Zenders', and then stop in the 'Gouda Cheese Shop' on the way home, weather dependent, we are suppose to get many days of rain coming up.

Back later...

Am back from Tauranga, all the paperwork done for the house sale. Hoping in the next 2 weeks, I can pick up the furniture that I want.... and that will be the last time I go into the house.... :(. Am feeling emotionally exhausted.... and have the headache from hell. The trip over was horrible, it was foggy, add in black ice and then roadworks, glad I left earlier than I planned. 

Not a lot has happened for the rest of the day, am going to bed soon, its a little chilly now..

Catch you tomorrow....

Thursday and 8 Months Tomorrow....

Tomorrow will be 8 months that dad passed..... like usual this time of the month, I am always unsettled....

Its 1 degree out there, so sure it will be a lovely frost out there....

Yesterday I went outside and the Tui just stayed out there and ate the orange... I was about a foot away, am going to try and hold the orange maybe today or tomorrow and see if it will land on me. That would be so cool...

Todays plans, go get some groceries.... then will prob go to the kindy teachers retirement lunch, not sure If Isaac will go for the day or not yet..... or just the lunch. It's his favourite teacher. 

Anyway back later :)

No kindy for Isaac, but we will go to the kindy teacher retirement lunch........ and yip a huge frost.....

We went to the lunch and it was really nice, and sad....

Tomorrow I have to be in Tauranga by 11am, as that is when our appointment is, not looking forward to it, with the heavy frosts we have had. It will be our only appointment, we are going to do all the paperwork, for takeover early August, well 5 weeks tomorrow to be exact. 

Catch you all tomorrow....

Stomach Issues....

Well my stomach issues have pretty much gone, so think stress was probably the issue....

Today I am going to New World's 3 Day Sale and get some stuff.... after I have mowed the lawns or will go tomorrow.

Isaac is still really sick so no kindy... yesterday he spent the whole day in bed, unlike him. 

5 Weeks on Friday, the house will be passed onto another family.

I have been awake since about 3am - I have been having dreams about mum and dad in the house.....

Back later :)

Oh my god, it is cold this morning, currently it is 2 degrees...... once the grass dries out a bit, I will do the lawns. And can't believe it is July 1st today, 2 weeks today Isaac will be 5 years old.... it's sad, I love him at this age......

Well have been a busy bee, mowed the lawns and think I fixed the loo that had running water all the time.... cleaned some of the glass doors on the lounge.... put out fresh oranges and now watching the wax eye's and Tui's having a nice feed :). 

Bugga the loo is not quite working right, heaps better but, might have another play tomorrow...

I ended up cleaning up the outside front entrance.... I was on a roll. Tomorrow at the kindy we have Isaac's favourite teacher retirement lunch, not sure if he will go for the whole day or just the lunch, depends on how he is in the morning. 

Today was such a beautiful day outside, it was cold and a heavy frost in the morning but a beautiful sunny day once it warmed up a bit. 

Anyway catch you all tomorrow :)