Have just come back from visiting dad, last night when my sister was staying there, he fell over twice, he is so weak, but the stubborn bugger decided he could walk, anyway he ended in hospital with a gash to his head..... they have just temporally fixed it, as he will go any day now, they don't want to put any extra pressure on him. They have transferred him to Hospice, where he will stay to the end, my sister is there tonight, and I will stay there tomorrow night, they need one of us there in the weekend at nights, as they are short staffed, a small price to pay. And then play it one day at a time, I am now home......till tomorrow morning.
Cancer fucking sucks, and it is so hard seeing him like this, he doesn't speak, sometimes I think he knows we are there..... but majority of the time not. We tried to keep him at home as long as we could, but the hospice room is nice and quiet, the staff are amazing and will give him everything he needs to make him as comfortable as possible. Keeping him at home, is now just to dangerous.....The doctor at the hospital was amazing..... they treated him with so much care and dignity.... We all just want him to go to sleep and not wake up anymore, he doesn't need to suffer anymore...
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