Yip.....

 I am currently watching IndyCar, think there is only 1 race left for the season, and that is next weekend. 

Shit hit the fan again with my darling daughter....

Today's plans start my lego, and maybe mow the lawns, not sure what the weather is going to be like though today, have not looked.

I am going to try and do relaxing things today, and try and calm down, after the race and after the housework :).

Back later..

All the kitchen cleaned and tidy, don't have to do drop off today apparently.

Going to test my fish tank again today, and hope the ammonia levels have dropped somewhat. 

Once again I have the headache from hell...

Well ended up doing the drop off gggrrrrr. One minute she says she will do it, the next minute its I can't drop him off you can if you want..... WTF am I suppose to do, that kid needs to go to school. 

Isaac had a good day at school, I ended up picking him up as well. 

Lawns never got mowed, it rained on and off all day - maybe tomorrow, will be doing drop off and pick up again tomorrow. Might see if Isaac wants to stay the night tomorrow night. Eli is not well, he is teething so bad..... poor boy. He has at least 3 if not 4 teeth coming through. We are now thinking that could be why he was not ok on Saturday night. 

Anyway thats me for today, catch you all tomorrow. 

Well That Was a Huge Fail.....

Well yesterday with both kids was a fail, Isaac was great, he also went out with his dad, and had a lovely time... but when dad went to go home, he got so upset, which set of Eli and then Rusty (dog), decided to join in with howling lol. 

Eli had one sleep, which made him overtired, and come night time he was not going to sleep... so at 11pm, I had to take him to Steph, there was no way he was going to sleep..... I felt bad, but knew if he didn't go home, today would have been hell, he also kept waking up Isaac. 

Today we may do groceries, and will take Isaac out for lunch, from 10pm to just after 12am, he wanted to chat as Eli had woken him, and he was so excited to be awake in the 'middle of the night'.

Waiting for IndyCar to continue, its rain delayed....

Back later...

IndyCar has been postponed to tomorrow...

We took Isaac out to lunch, which was nice....

He is now home and I am buggered.......but yesterday before the kids arrived, I had started moving things around in the craft/gaming area, so will finish that soon. 

Am signing off for today, not much else will be happening :). 

Weekend is Here yet Again, and it's Raining.....

Well looks like no lawns will be mowed this week, maybe next week. 

After drop off, I will go to the supermarket and get some groceries for the kiddo's mainly Eli food. Then I need to pick up my script....

Today is mufti day for Isaac, so he has to bring in a gold coin for cancer. He brought home the newsletter, and runs in to tell me he has a ticket for school. He was so excited with his 'ticket" lol. 

Anyway back later :)

Today has been off, as in I am feeling off..... my mental health is suffering.....

Maybe it's the weather have no idea....

I just watched 'The Pastors Wife' on Netflix...

Anyway signing of for the day, Isaac had a good day at school, so thats good. 

Catch you tomorrow....

A Good Night......

Isaac had a good night here, slept 11 1/2 hours... Did I mention I am having both kids on Saturday night, that will be fun not lol. Hopefully it goes ok, the kids dad will come and see them on Saturday afternoon..... not going to tell Isaac in case it backfires.... I am the in-between person for Steph and the dad....

Today's plans, go to the fish shop and get a testing kit and hopefully some live plants :). 

And going to relax for the day, having kids multiple days in a row, tires me out, will do the vacuuming and mop the floors though. 

Back later....

Drop off done, and went to fish shop, tested my tank, ammonia level is still high and PH level slightly low, so wont be getting any fish this week, hopefully next weekend, my tank is ok, as it is a new tank setup. So just wait and see and retest early next week, I did get a few live plants and driftwood etc though...

Not the best of photos but will do for now.... well more than likely add more live plants if these survive, I got the easiest ones to grow for now. So hopefully by the end of next week, we MIGHT have fishies :). 

Had Eli for an hour today and that was enough..... lol

Anyway catch you all tomorrow :)

Whoops Again I Forgot to Come Back....

After drop off, need to go and get a few groceries.....

Plans, hope to get the lawns done, if I can start the bloody thing, I normally get Steph's ex to start it, but he has moved out, so can't now. 

Need to put the heater in the fish tank and check the levels, to see if I can put fish in it yet, (think it will be to early lol), also going to hopefully get some live plants for in there hopefully. 

Our thermal heating has been banging, so need to bleed the heaters today, that should stop it. 

Anyway back later....

Isaac is here for the night...

Have put the heater in the fish tank, it is now at the right heat for fish, so tomorrow after drop off, will get the testing kit and some plants and bits n bobs to make the tank look good, if the water is at the right level, Friday will go and buy some fishies  :). 

Not much else happened today, did housework, washing blah blah blah and just done Isaac's dinner.

So on that note catch you tomorrow.

Spring is so Close now.....

Whoops forgot to end the blog yesterday, I had Eli for about 3 hours yesterday, my choice this time :). 

Today may have Eli again, if I feel like it after school drop off, will see how I feel. He's getting a cute age now :). 

Didn't mow the lawns yesterday, might try today, otherwise tomorrow maybe. 

And that's about it for now...

No lawns mowed today, had little Eli till 1.00pm, by the time I cleaned up his mess, it was 1.30pm so had some lunch and I need to go and pick up Isaac soon from school, Steph has an appointment. Maybe tomorrow for the lawns lol. 

Eli is getting so cute now, still a bit naughty though :). 

IndyCar.... and Spring....

Indycar is about to start, have been up since 4am, and the race had all the pre-crap that didn't interest me, including Trump. I could have slept another hour, oh thats right Steph txted me at 4am and woke me up. 

Today's plans no idea, maybe try and go through the last couple of boxes of mine in the garage, before the skip goes back tomorrow oh and maybe mow the lawns, or that could be tomorrows job. 

Exciting Spring is here next week, can't bloody wait, hoping the real cold weather is over with for this year.

I am tired that I know, so back later... 

Sunday and Isaac here for the day......

Little Isaac is here for the day (don't ask), anyway I will take him to the fish shop to buy the stuff we need to get the tank started - am a little excited by that. About to make him butter on toast for breakfast, his latest phase, it is not allowed to be the plastic stuff his words - (margarine). He really is such a good little boy.

Will take a photo of the fish tank when set up - well somewhat set up with no fish and not sure about plants if I can put them in now or need to wait for the tank to be happy :). 

Anyway watching the IndyCar that I recorded well the practice's..... qualifying is at 9am :).

Well fish tank set up, just need to add some plants which I will do at the end of the week, when they get a new shipment in, and then hopefully it will be ready for fish the following week. 

It is till cloudy but hopefully it will be clear in a couple of days, the light has many colours you can change.... It has a spongebob house in it, told Isaac he could choose one ornament.... he wanted the whole thing to be spongebob lol.

Isaac finally went home about 3ish, it was a long day, good thing he is such a good kid most of the time. Now to choose some fish, oh still need to out the heater in :). 

Thats me for today, catch you all tomorrow.

And the Weekend Is Here.....

Today I hope to pick up the fish tank in Tauranga, I might build the stand and set it up as far as I can, I am hoping to have fish in it in about 3 weeks. At this stage I am just going to set it up, then see what fish I want, it will be a heated freshwater tank. We used to have a 6ft tank, many years ago.... I also want live plants so in there so need to work out how that works.... like many live plants... so lots of youtube will be watched. My nieces husband knows heaps about fish, all I really know is that I need aquatic soil and gravel for the bottom. 

Anyway not much else to report.... 

Oh woke up at 6am again, by 6.30am it was so light, next week when I start walking again, I can leave about 6.30ish am - yay.

The day has been busy, picked up the fish tank and stand, put the stand together and the empty tank is on the top. Tomorrow I need to go and get some stuff to get it ready for fish :).

Anyway thats it from me, am tired....

Friday.......

Whoops didn't get back yesterday....

I have pretty much finished my decluttering so David has to do his part of the garage, yesterday was rough, with decluttering, today will be a much easier day. 

Isaac came and stayed last night, it was rough as well, I think the effects of him not seeing his dad daily is starting to affect him. But we got through and he is in fact fast asleep, I will do drop off, and Steph will do pick up. 

We are going to get some shelving for the garage hopefully then we can tidy it all up properly once and for all. 

Back later.....

Can't believe we are so close to Spring... my favourite season :)

Am going to have Eli for a bit this afternoon, while Steph picks up Isaac and takes him out for a treat. 

Something exciting happened today, I purchased a fish tank, something I have wanted for years, I had one when I was with my ex, and have missed one since..... It had 25% off today so ordered it online and have done click n collect to pick up tomorrow in Tauranga :). 

Catch you tomorrow :)

Busy Day Today.....

Today I will be doing not much if any decluttering, instead my day will be entertained by the littlest man, after school drop off, till school pick up (I think). We are aiming to get most of the skip done by Sunday :). It will be picked up Tuesday. Steph and David will do a lot if not all the big stuff today, (all her stuff), and then we can start the garage tomorrow properly think we will get some shelving for in there. 

OMG I managed to stay up till just after 9pm and woke up at 6.15am, it was nearly daylight when I got up. It felt like being a normal human lol.

Anyway back later, I will prob be more exhausted than if I spent the doing the decluttering lol. 

Slight change of plan, I did the decluttering with David, (all of Steph's stuff, it was all sitting outside just waiting to be loaded into the skip), and Steph kept Eli, we have got all her stuff in the skip so now we focus on the garage over the next 3 days.... hopefully we should be finished by Saturday :)

Is It Wedensday?

I have to look at my watch to see what day it is....

Today's plans decluttering and might make a banana cake for Steph and the kiddo's. In fact I might make it after drop off, get that job done :). 

My back was sore last night, this morning it feels a lot better. 

Not much else to say for now...

Drop off done, got to the place I was going to let him go by himself he took 3 steps and goes "Oma I can't do it", I said thats ok we will try again tomorrow :).

Mini Skip declutter done for now, banana cakes made..... just need to ice them :). David has the next four days off, to help with the garage. 

Now going to relax for a bit :)

Cake was a hit with Isaac, not so much Eli lol.

Not much else has happened today, Isaac came for a visit after school. 

It's so nice that it is 6pm and it is still just light... and in the morning, it is getting light earlier.

Catch you all tomorrow :)

Mini Skip Arriving.....

Today the mini skip is arriving, we have a pile ready to go in. Today's plans are clean out the bedroom clutter, and the hall cupboards, hopefully it wont take to long. 

Other plans school drop off, and try and get Isaac to walk in from the entrance..... or at least somewhere closer to his classroom. 

Then not sure what else I will do after that :). 

Oh and it looks like the kids dad is not coming back to live, it was just not working out for him to be there. Everyone seems a lot happier right now, once things have settled he will come back for visits and have them overnight etc.... just taking it day by day right now. 

Bedroom 80% done, will finish it soon, then start on the hallway cupboards.... still waiting on the skip..... then pretty much the inside of the house will be done and can start on the garage :). 

Finished todays decluttering the hallway cupboards were not to bad as I had done them recently. 

Still waiting on the skip to arrive, going to rest before it gets here, well it just arrived looks smaller than I thought, god I hope it fits everything if not might have to get another one lol. Might go and load what I have in there now. 

Skip has the first lot of stuff in it, will start the garage tomorrow and go from there, will also add Stephs rubbish pile to it as well. 

My back is killing me, but this has to be done, we have the skip for a week :).

Anyway am knackered, going to bed soon, trying to stay awake till after 8pm preferably 8.30pm.

Catch you tomorrow :)

Whoops....

Whoops didn't come back yesterday, just got to busy, Isaac visited after groceries....

Didn't get to do any decluttering, hopefully today, currently watching IndyCar, it started at 4am, must admit am struggling to stay awake, lately I have been waking up about 5.30 - 6am ish. Today's plans is to do at least Isaac's wardrobe, which has become a dumping ground.

Looks like the kids dad wont be back this week, so said to Steph I will do drop off's, we are going to try and do where I will walk him to the gate and he can walk the rest himself, to hopefully by the end of the week, we can just do the drop off zone.... then Steph will do pick ups.

Back later....

Well it is 5 degrees at nearly 8am but feels like -1 degree, went outside to put some rubbish in the bin, and it was rather chilly. The wind is bloody cold.

I don't mind doing drop offs right now as the school is just a 1km away, unlike kindy which was on the other side of town. Lets see if he will walk alone from the gate, or if I have to walk him to class.

I need to go to the supermarket today to get some oat milk for Eli, so will do that after drop off.

Kitchen housework done :).

Well Isaac's wardrobe and room done, threw out about 4 rubbish bags and 2 bags for donations.

Can't wait for the skip to arrive tomorrow.

Oh Isaac wanted me to walk him to class, will try again tomorrow :). 

Getting Eli soon for a couple of hours, well Steph does some shopping and pick up.

Today's Plans Are.....

Today's plans are groceries at some stage, am currently watching IndyCar Practice 2, and at 10.30am is qualifying, and Sky is still working - so lets hope it stays that way :).

May have a kid at some stage, and also will start going through the wardrobe and cupboards putting junk in bags, all ready to throw in the skip. I am going to be brutal, if I have not used it in this house, then we don't need it, if it is ok to donate I will. I want to get everything finished inside the house by Friday and then the weekend will be focussed on the garage. 

Back later...

A Weekend Again....

Today we are going to The Dutch Market, here in Rotorua with Isaac, then we will take Isaac to Toyworld, thinking I might buy a lego to do... then maybe groceries as well some time today. 

Just waiting for the IndyCar to start, well practice one, though our sky box is not working again, so will have to watch it on sky go on the laptop. 

The days are really getting longer now, it is currently 10 degree's with a high of 15 degrees. 

Looking forward to next week, when we will have our mini skip, going to start building a pile to clean out this weekend hopefully. 

Back later :)

Isaac had a lovely time at the dutch market....

Then we went to Toyworld, where he got a present, I got this lego set for me, but wont start it till after we have cleaned up with the mini skip.

Not much else has happened, watching the darts on TV, it is being held in New Zealand, oh and no IndyCar for some reason today, got postponed, oh and got sky working again by doing a hard reset.

Anyway catch you tomorrow :)

No Idea What To Do Anymore....

Out of control, things have gone out of control at Steph's place, I hope to get Eli today but who knows. Maybe it's time to get the professionals in....

Anyway it is bloody warm this morning, it is 11 degrees and it feels like summer, with the thermal heating, wish we could get an adjustable thermostat on each heater....

Some housework done.....

Back later :)

I had this little man for most of the day.... he loves this ball pit..... think it is most favourite toy.

Then dropped him back and Isaac came for a visit, by 4.30pm I was all kiddod out....

Now we are having Uber for dinner....

Tomorrow is The Dutch Market, so we will take Isaac there and then to Toyworld to buy a pressie. 

Catch you all tomorrow, it's actually been a good day, Steph and I have not argued....

Lets See......

Well lets see what today brings....I am doing drop off, Isaac slept for 11 hours, this poor kid is so not himself, yesterday he undid his seatbelt as I was getting in the car to do drop off, so had to get out and redo it, he knew I was not impressed, poor kid kept saying Im sorry over and over again, thinking I was going to yell at him. And another time we were playing together and I said ouch just for fun, and again he look so scared, and kept apologising.... It's so bloody sad, before his dad comes back I need to talk to Steph...

Whoops forgot to post this....

Drop off done, got nice and wet lol, but Isaac kept dry under the umbrella, was going to get some groceries but I was to wet, will go later :). 

Isaac had a video chat with his dad this morning, he enjoyed that and cried when they hung up. Its such a hard situation..... for him especially. Eli is to young to really know whats all happening, I will surprised if Isaac gets to school tomorrow. I will just keep reassuring Isaac, how much he is loved. 

Isaac came home sick with an earache..... hmmmm then said Kohen (his friend) said if we are sick we can come home lol. 

Its a miserable day out there wet and horrible.... Steph and I have been disagreeing again, (polite word to say arguing), my poor sister has been getting the brunt of it all from me. 

Not much else to say, catch you all tomorrow.

Struggling.....

 As a grandparent, do you ever get a break..... I told Steph this morning, that if things don't change I will be dead with a heart attack by the end of the year..... Again I had to do drop off, they were angry in front of Isaac, so bought him here, and I will do pick up and he will stay tonight. Jacob is going away today till after the weekend, so lets see how she copes alone, I am not going to look after any kids for the next few days, she wants to do it alone, so lets see how that goes. If I do want a child, it will be on my conditions... she wants J gone, so lets see how that goes.

Anyway Isaac is at school and happy, managed to make him laugh...... thats all that matters :). 

I can't even relax enough even to enjoy the car.

Anyway back later with hopefully me a lot calmer :)

Isaac is here and is fast asleep on the chair, and it's only 5.30pm, the poor kid is so tired.... I have also told Steph I don't want any negative txt's for the next few days, and I don't want to have any kids, lets see how well she does, it wouldn't surprise me if she keeps Isaac home on Friday. 

I am once again emotionally exhausted....... but hopefully with a few days without stress, I will start to feel better....

What Will Today Bring....

No real plans for the day..... need to go and get some tomatoes as we are out and I want some for our chicken wraps for dinner tonight. 

Not sure how the day will go, depends on my daughter I suppose. Might go for a drive as well :).

Finally getting a little excited for the car, and starting to feel a bit more comfortable in it I think. Planning to do my nails sometime this week as well :)

Next week we have the mini skip coming, where we will have a good clean out. 

Back later :)

Well looks like I am doing drop off, its ok I can go to the grocery shop after drop off.....

Well drop off done and groceries got..... 

Was thinking, it would be stupid to do nails this week, when we are having a huge clean out next week, I am more than likely to break them.....

Well the day ended crap thanks to darling daughter, David and I are going to talk on the weekend about putting some ground rules in place for the unit. 

Anyway thats me for today I looked after Eli while Steph went to pick up Isaac. He is really a cutie a naughty cutie though lol. 

I have told her that I will look after the kiddos on my terms, and if her partner isn't there, then she needs to sort out how she will do pick ups etc.... I am not doing it anymore unless I want too. 

And on that note I am outta here for today, catch you tomorrow :)

Am Back.....

 Until yesterday, I had worked myself up so much, once the money hit the bank on Friday, it hit that the house was no longer in the family.... Today I have woken up feeling a bit better. Picked up the car yesterday... so something to look forward too this week, learning it all :). We will also be mortage free next month :). 

It was nice to drive home..... it only had 13kms on the milage, after driving home, it is still under 100K's lol. Today I plan to learn the car and no doubt will go for a short drive :). 

Also caught up with my sister and her family yesterday for brunch, we are going to try and meet up every 4-6 weeks :)

Currently watching the IndyCar warm up, the race starts at 8am :), so will clean the kitchen (Monday jobs), in-between the warm up and race.  

Still have a headache, which has not really gone in weeks, the shit hit the fan with Steph and I last week, not going into details but it was bad, we are kinda talking now.... but things are tense......

Today has been tough, but thats ok, took Isaac to school (don't ask)... though he had trouble getting in the car lol. 

Missed most of the race due to drop off......

The rest of the day has been ok kinda....

Hopefully tomorrow will be better :)

Had homemade burgers for dinner, which was nice :).

Catch you all tomorrow. 

0 Day's

 The day has come and the house is no longer ours......

It feels weird, but a huge relief.....

Now is the time to put me first, its been a rough week but a new week begins on Monday.

Sunday I am picking up the new car, it is all paid for, and insurance sorted......

Anyway I will be back on Monday, I am emotionally exhausted....

See you all on Monday :). 

4 Days and 9 Months....

 4 days till settlement, and it is 9 months today that dad left us......

It is going to be so hard this week...

Today's plans might have Eli for a bit, maybe a nice distraction..... and prep the chicken for dinner - yip real exciting stuff....

I ended up driving Steph and Isaac to school drop off, she was going to let him stay home when he threw a tantrum, I am so close to kicking her out, I can't do her added stress as well right now.

I am taking some time off from here, see you when I see you - when ever that would be, I need to get in a better head space.

Fuck everything right now, my mental health is boder-line right now and I could cope if I didn't have her crap to deal with. 

Keep Getting My Countdown Days Muddled Up, 5 Days Today.... (I think) :)

I obviously can't count, today is 5 days to settlement..... and this time next week, hope to pick up the car :).

Last night stayed up till 7.55pm and woke up at 4am, and tossed and turned till 5am, hoping to fall back asleep. 

Today's plans groceries.... and not sure what else.

Tomorrow will be 9 months since dad has gone, its weird in the moment it feels like time is going so slow.... yet when I look back, its hard to believe it's 9 months. 

Today, nothing exciting, I am really struggling and don't think the next week will get any easier....

Isaac came for a little visit, that was nice... I feel like he has changed with school, in a good way and he loves school so thats good. 

Catch you tomorrow maybe...

5 Days Till Settlement..... and a New Month.

5 Days.... till you know what lol.

Todays plans, maybe groceries, maybe Isaac for the night...

The last 2 nights, we have kept the lounge curtains open, it is pretty private here.... the nights are getting so much lighter, nearly 6pm last night and it was just only going dark...... I hate curtains shut anytime.

Spring next month yay :)

Oh and went to bed at 7.50pm and woke up at 5am, so not to bad :). 

Back later :)

Isaac is here, well was here him and David have gone out for a bit, then I will cook him dutch croquets for lunch - he loves them so much :). 

Have not really done a lot today...... just trying to stay relaxed, the closer we get to the settlement day, the worse I seem to feel. 

Isaac has now gone home, and still have this bloody headache, it just wont go away.....

Remember a couple of weeks ago, I pushed our push plug thing down in the bathroom sink, and it jammed down there, (well maybe you don't remember), we had well I had tried many different ways to try and get the push thing to come back up, today we finally got a plunger to try, last thing on the list to try, before we called the plumber in, well it worked, bloody stoked :). 

And on that note, I still have nearly 2 hours before I can go to bed.... and hopefully wake up at 5am at the earliest, lest see what happens :).

I will catch you tomorrow :).