The Last Day of January.....

OMG its the last day of the month, in 3 days time it will be 4 months since dad went.... :(.

Right now I am baby sitting both the little munchkins.... Eli just loves to stand up now, well pulling himself up and standing... he has just turned 7 months old..... Isaac goes to school in July/August can't believe how fast time is going.....

I purchased a new Apple Watch the other day, my old one is all cracked, so couldn't go in the pool anymore. I also got a new vacuum cleaner, I know longer need to haul the old one out plug it in and get a sore back, its the shark one which also empties itself into the bin thing....  so I can un-click it, and no longer get a sore back. 

No real plans for the weekend.... groceries and thats about it.

The people come to look at the house again today and are going to a mortage broker next week.... so cross fingers, we also told them they can keep the furniture in the house that I am not taking......

Been a Few Days.......

 Well been a couple of days....

We are starting to get heaps of tomatoes, picked all our plums, picked all the peaches, strawberries have practically finished,  cucumbers were a bit of a flop this year..... we have so so many apples..... blackberries are just about in full season, feijoas are starting to get bigger, passionfruit are starting to change colour to purple.... think thats it for now....

Steph and I have decided to start getting into a routine with Isaac staying, he will be coming here every Tuesday and Thursday nights from now on.....

I will be getting my swimming card next week, so my goals are:

Monday - Walk

Tuesday - Gym

Wednesday - Pool

Thursday - Day Off

Friday - Gym

Saturday - Day Off

Sunday - Gym

I thrive of routine....

Dads house was going to go on the market next week, but we have had someone interested in buying the house, they have been through it twice, they are friends of my niece... he has a hot rod and dads garage is a quadruple garage and has a pit so perfect for him, and she loves the house..... they are going to get in contact with my sister maybe Sunday or early next week to make an offer....

Yesterday I booked a haircut and bleach with my old hairdresser, she usually has a like a 2-3 month wait, but she managed to squeeze me in late February so looking forward to bleached hair and a good cut again. 

I am sure there is more to say but can't remember what, oh weigh in today and had a gain of 350grams, I can live with that :).

Anyway thats me for now......

I needed That.......

 I needed those few days away from things.....

I am just about to go out for a walk soon, feeling like a walk......

The china cabinet and hutch from mum and dad's arrived safe.....

Back later.....

I did a 20 min walk this morning..... and really enjoyed it.... and glad I did it, instead of the gym.

Dad's house is going on the market in about 2 weeks time I assume, the real estate agent will be coming this week maybe and I assume by the time they do photos etc... it will be a couple of weeks. I am not sure if I will ever go back to the house now.... it is to hard. 

Today Isaac and Eli will be getting there vaccinations, don't think they will be happy boys after that. I might take Isaac out after the shots and buy him a pressie....  might see if he wants to stay the night as well. 

Be back Monday..... or Tuesday...

Tomorrow I am going to dad's and saying my official goodbye to the house, until I need to pick up the extra furniture, once the house sells.... I am feeling all kind of weird.... not in a good head space......

I am going to need a few days to get my self together, and time to really grieve....

We have a long weekend happening this weekend.... no plans.... just getting through it....

Have a great weekend everyone... and who knows I might come back sooner if I am up to it. 

Hmmmmm.......

Not sure how I feel, today hospice are coming to get a lot and I mean a lot of Dad's stuff..... I hate it knowing it is all going..... it's stressing me out so much, then I start bawling my eyes out...

Last night I went to bed at about 7.30pm, I was so tired, then couldn't get to sleep. No walk today I still feel so tired, hoping after Thursday when I have a little bit of the furniture, I won't need to return to the house till after it has sold, to collect the last bit of stuff that I am wanting, that we are keeping there for selling. Every time I go, it sets me back mentally, it is the family home and dad built a lot of it. 

Anyway not sure of todays plans, but going to take it easy, not sure if maybe I have a slight bug.... time will tell. 

Gym Again.....

 I am starting to feel comfortable at the gym again....

After yesterday I have decided to add a Sunday to the gym.... I always thought it would be to busy, so didn't even try to go.... but will give it another go. Once school starts, I will change one of the week gyms to the pool. 

Man it got cold yesterday, it said 16 degrees, feels like 12 degrees and boy it did....

Man I can't wait till after Thursday, when the furniture will arrive....

Housework all done and heading to the gym soon..... and not sure what the rest of the day is going to be, dinner is easy homemade hamburgers.... oh and going to start focusing on my food a bit more this week. Small baby steps....

Gym done, I felt really tired doing it, did the rower and upper body.... water drunk.... didn't go in the thermal pool, just didn't feel like it plus I have a courier coming, and didn't want to miss it as it is signature and he can come anytime now... had my shower and just waiting for courier and then need to pick up a script :). 

Package got, script got..... had an early dinner was hungry so cooked my hamburger... for some reason I feel exhausted today.....

Catch you tomorrow....

Today I am going......

Soon I am going to the gym, I am dressed ready to go, just waiting till about 8am, hope its not busy being a weekend..... I am waiting for my watch to charge....

Steph and family have gone to her dads, she went Friday but came back home, there were so many roadworks, just over two hours and she only got to Tirau..... which is normally a 45 min drive, but add screaming kids and it was to much lol. So they left yesterday morning, and come back Tuesday, then Isaac starts kindy Wednesday. 

We are only suppose to get to 17 degrees today, yay :). Oh and think why I know why my back/shoulder area is sore, its the fan I sleep with, I moved it so it's closer to me and maybe it's giving me a slight chill or something, time will tell :)

Gym done, Thermal Pool done, Water Drunkin.... I feel good that I went :). Today I did Lower and Wrist exercises.... As it was raining, I did my walk on the treadmill, so all planned exercise done this week. The gym was really quiet only 2 other people there plus me, when I left there were about 10 people so all in all it was good :). 

Did I or Didn't I....

No I didn't go to the gym, no real excuse, but I am sure I could have thought of one..... but to be honest I just couldn't be bothered......

Have organised the movers to pick up the few things I am taking from the house for Thursday, one china cabinet is going to be my lego cabinet..... I have to be in Katikati by 8am so am planning to leave here about 5.30am.....

Anyway thats it for now.....

Am going to the gym in the morning, I feel guilty only going twice, might even do a walk as well tomorrow.

The Mens Shed are coming Thursday as well after the movers have been, David will be here at this end to unload....

The sky has gone black as and a lot of thunder..... oh and the little waxeyes were eating the oranges and feeding their little babies, the babies were sitting on the fence with their little mouths open and the mummy birds were putting orange in it.....it was so cute, made my day..... dad would have loved to have seen it, normally I would have videoed it.....

I removed my nails today, will do them again after the furniture is moved over, glad I am only going over once this week....

Anyway signing of for today.... 

Weigh In Day...... and Davids Birthday.....

Today I weighed in and lost 1 kilo, so 3.65 kilos down in 2 weeks, I am happy with that..... nearly 1/3 of my yearly goal done....

Davids birthday today, think we are going out for lunch...

Yesterday went to Dad's and The mens Shed was suppose to come and get what they wanted from Dad's tools, but the guy had, had an injury and forgot, so will ring them on Monday and organise it for next week.  Brought back the last of the bits n bobs from the house, all I have to get is the big furniture that I am hoping will get picked up next week by the removers. 

Fuck I just thought of something I was going to say but have now forgotten......

We are meeting Davids sister and BIL for lunch, Steph is heading up to her dads, for a couple of days, am going to miss the little munchkins.... Eli is now sitting up by himself....

Just finished vacuuming and mopping the floor.....

Now I am hot and bothered.....

Oh and changed gym day till tomorrow, I had to much to do today, clean bathrooms, change sheets etc etc....

Another Tough Day..... and Wedding Anniversary

Visiting the house now sets me off big time, and especially twice in a week. Today we will bring home the last of the stuff that can fit in the car, next week the removers will bring back the 2 china cabinets, a lazaboy chair and the outdoor furniture..... and think thats it, then we get the cleaners in and it goes on the market..... Steph's friend who took the trailer brought back the single bed and fridge. Oh and have a huge lot of stuff to drop off at hospice. 

We are meeting the Mens Shed their today to pick up dad's tools they want.....

Oh it our wedding anniversary today, 15 years married wow lol, also Davids birthday tomorrow, have not even thought of a gift......

Well today didn't go quite as planned.....

2 Near Misses......

Yesterday we had 2 near misses on-route and back from Dads. 1st one on the way, a dog ran out on the road, the car in front of me slammed on their breaks, I slammed on mine..... it was close poor Isaac started freaking out.....after a while he was ok. 2nd one was on the way home when a car decided to change lanes to go off at an exit on a roundabout, in front of a van, (who was in front of me) who beeped and slammed on their breaks, which I also tried to avoid and managed too, and the automatic break system clicked in..... Its time like this I have a good safety rating car, and we have that, Isaac slept through that one...... Dad was looking out for us. I now have a sore back, think from the near miss on the way home.... I am going to the gym, but will take it easy and then have a long soak in the thermal pool. 

The rest of the day will be resting as tomorrow we are going back to dads....

At about 7am, I thought lets try the gym and hope it's not busy and it was busy but not to bad.... did my workout.... and now waiting for the thermal pool to cool down, then hopping in, my back feels a little better maybe cause I did upper body and it's stretched it out a bit.....

Am glad I went, cause I was thinking if I waited much longer I wouldn't have gone.....

1.5 Litres of water drunkin...... dinner had, and going to bed soon. Am emotionally exhausted, today dads phone and internet got disconnected. Call me silly but I still rung the number because most days... today it didn't work.... that set me off something chronic....

Well Nearly There......

Only one more load of stuff to bring back from dads, and the worse is done..... I will do that Thursday, then arrange for movers to pick up the china cabinets I am wanting moved to here and a few small bits n bobs..... then the house will go on the market in about 2 weeks time..... Steph's friend took the trailer (they can keep it) and brought the fridge and a single bed back for Steph. 

The house is so empty now.... it feels weird...... I also had to drop some paper work off at the lawyers....

I am emotionally exhausted today I brought back all the photo albums and there are many of them...... One day I will go through them..... but not ready now. 

Another Week begins.....

 Great our Ice maker kicked the bucket, will need to go out later and find another one...... gggggrrrrrr.

I was going to use that excuse not to go to the gym, but I went..... I did lower today and the rower. Just waiting for the pool to cool down then hopping in....

Back soon

Well Ice maker got, the last one in our store, we seem to go through one a year so got a cheapy from Kmart - at least then it is only $100 every year, its exactly like our last one, with just a different name and $80 cheaper.... so ice is making as we speak....

I drunk 1.5 litres of water today, the gym water is really cold so that was nice, refilled it before I left for home...... then went in the thermal pool when I got home..

I am so bloody hot now after going out and about and washing the ice maker etc........

Not sure if I mentioned but Isaac stayed last night :).

Well nearly bedtime...... Ice maker is working well, of to dads tomorrow and just had a feed of peaches and plums......

Nearly Another New Week....

Today not any plans, it is suppose to be hotter than yesterday....

I have watered the gardens, ate my first plum, the birds are getting them so will need to pick the nearly ripe ones and ripen them inside the rest of the way..... oh and need to put out some oranges for the birdies :). 

Next weeks goal I am going to add in, is drink water daily..... I have already started that goal today, this morning I felt like cucumber and tomatoes so that was breakfast kinda lol. 

I also need to go to dad's house two times next week, one of the days is to go and meet someone who we are giving the trailer too, the other day is The Mens Shed are going to pick up all the stuff they want, so need to be there for that.

Anyway thats it for now....

We decided to have dinner at lunchtime, as it is to hot to cook later in the day, we had homemade hamburgers, with our own grown lettuce, cucumber and tomatoes..... so tonight will be something simple....

I drank 1 litre of water today, go me..... Picked the nearly ripe plums, and put an orange out for the birds....

And Just Like That it is Friday Again.....

And just like that another weekend is upon us.....

Our fruit is starting to ripen up......

Crab Apples

Plums

Feijoas

And the passionfruit are looking good :).

Been to the gym, so planned exercise for the week done.... am proud of myself, I so didn't want to go today..... About to jump in the thermal pool :)

Pool done, showered and just relaxing (well trying), Fridays is weigh in day, this week I lost 2.65 Kilos, I am happy with that....... I am in such a grump today, god help me if anyone gets on the wrong side of me..... Oh and bonus of the gym, I am drinking about 750mls of water, not much I know but it's 750mls more than last week. 

Roll on winter this bloody heat is doing my head in...... 

Anyway thats it for me today......

WTF Thursday Already.....

This morning has been busy, cleaning bathrooms, vacuuming and moping before it got to hot..... I am still hot and sweating lol

No gym today, its a rest day :)

The puppies are at the groomers, will pick them up in a couple of hours....

Not many other plans for the day, except prep dinner....

Not to bad a Night and feeling more confident......

 Am feeling more confident with Eli now, so think he will stay more often....., in fact he is still fast asleep.... he will be going home at about 9.30am, and then I will go to the gym.... do I feel like going no I will just focus on one day at a time.....

Am going to have Isaac tonight I think, but he can come after lunch......

After the gym, it will be a dip in the thermal pool again, going to aim for three times a week in there.....

Catch you later....

This has been my morning....

Gym has been done..... thermal pool done, and just waiting on Isaac to see if he is coming for the night..... this time I was a bit more relaxed in the pool......

Fuck it is hot, Isaac is here 'visiting' at this stage but am going to try and persuade him to stay the night, and then in the morning pick up the puppies from the groomers, and then go home..... He has just had a bath and have a pizza in the airfryer for dinner, his request lol. Then hopefully he will stay the night.....  

Looking forward to no gym tomorrow lol

Well nope he didn't want to stay, so he is back at home.... Catch you all tomorrow :)

Walk Done.....

Today I went on my walk, only 12 minutes and not to far from home, in case my knee clonked out, though I am waiting for a total knee replacement, surprisingly it has not given me to much grief in the last year...... I would like to get to 5ks for each walk eventually.  My goal is one walk a week, but am going to aim for two, one on the weekend maybe..... am thinking I might do the lawns a bit later...... before it gets to hot. 

I think summer is back, we are suppose to get some hot days for the next week....

From the gym yesterday, I can feel my arms used some parts that had not been used much at all..... I am also looking at buying a swim concession ticket when school goes back so can add that in once or twice a week. The pool is pretty much on the way home from dropping Isaac at kindy. He starts back on the 19th.....

Also another thing I want to get back into is cooking meals again, over the Christmas break we had so many take-outs it was not funny, last night we had sausages, tonight we are having steak and a potato salad, that reminds me I need to cook the potato's soon, so they can be cold when I make it (Done).... tomorrow night it will be something with chicken.....

Anyway maybe back later or maybe not....

Well lawns done, had a cold shower and still sweating......it was so hot out there....

Am hoping to do my nails today, once I have cooled down....

Nails done and now have Eli for the night.... will send him home about 9.30ish as I want to go to the gym round then......

Another Nice Day and Time to Get down and Do Some Stuff.......

Today I am doing the gym, going to do upper body - goal for January at least 3 x a week and 1 walk a week......

This morning, I have done my weekly Monday chores, watered the garden, picked some tomatoes and a strawberry. Also yesterday picked the first of the blackberries....

When I get home from the gym, am planning to jump in the thermal pool, my wrist has really been playing up so hoping that will help..... 

This week I am going to dad's hopefully, and organise The Mens Shed to come and pick up the tools they want.....The house will go on the market in about a months time.....

Yesterday had a friend and her hubby pop in for a visit, while they were in Rotorua, another goal for this year get more sociable.......

Anyway back later maybe.....

Well went to the gym, am proud of myself, also had a soak in the thermal pool, I need to learn and relax in there, rather than thinking I need to get out, I literally have nothing more to do for the day except the washing and cook dinner....... so there was no need to rush.... something to work on....

Well at Least it is Sunny I suppose......

 Really struggling again today, at least it is not daily anymore..... 

Its sunny so thats good, the plums are turning red, yesterday I picked 4 cucumbers.... went to check the peaches and saw heaps on the ground, looked up and decided to pick them now, well most of them, some are ripe, some are needed to be ripened but better than the birds eating them.....

And here they are in their glory... and there are still more on the tree.... oh and the feijoas are starting to form as well :).

In a couple of weeks I think the first plums will be ready, and the blackberries are getting there, as well as the blueberries...... That makes me happy....

Normally I would be dropping a lot of to dad :(.

Wow just WOW......

Well its already the 3rd day in January, time is flying by..... it is 2 months today dad passed and I still miss him everyday.....

This morning I have been a busy bee doing the washing, dishes (ok so taking them out of the dishwasher) and made a banana cake we had rotten bananas (enough for one cake), so I made it.....

Yesterday I made ambrosia, meant to make it for Christmas but didn't, so had all the ingredients and decided to do it yesterday...... shared it with Steph and family.....

On Monday, it is back to normality, I am going to the gym three days a week for now.....and hope to get it up to four days with a walk or two through the week. 

David is back at work on Monday, think Steph will be going up to her dads next week for a couple of days..... it's going to be awfully quiet here when she goes lol.  

And thats me for now :). 

Well its here 2026.......

 Well 2026 is here.....

What does this mean, not a lot, 2025 was a year I think was the most stressful year I may have ever had, and glad it is behind us....

New Years Eve, I had Isaac and Eli..... bloody hell a 4 1/2 year old and a 6 month old, who is on the move by stomach crawling and rolling took its toll lol. He is so close to crawling on all fours, and trying to stand..... little bugga..... 

Today I am taking Isaac out to buy a toy and for some lunch somewhere..... he has been such a good boy in helping me with Isaac etc....

Goals for 2026..... only a couple...

• To lose 12 kilos this year
• Get fitter (Go to the Gym Regular)

And thats it.......

Hope you all had a good New Year...... Eli woke up at 11.30pm, so was snuggling him with a bottle when the clock ticked over, had a silent cry and counted  my blessings with the 2 little grand-babies in my life....