Today we head over to Hamilton for the biopsy, and then in about a weeks time, I should have the results....... it will be a long week. I am trying to stay positive but hey negativity does come to the forefront every now and then. I am a little nervous about the biopsy itself, but I think its more fear of the unknown, as never had one before :).
Anyway thats it from me for now....
I am tired, it all took longer than I thought it would.....
Am freaking out, yes everyone can tell me the chances are good of it being benign.... but thats not helping and I have to wait another week for results...... I am not freaking out about the procedure, well maybe a little bit, but I want to hear confirmation thats it is benign.
Yesterday I had lots of newborn cuddles, can't believe he is already 1 week and 2 days old.....oh and his bullbirin levels were great so does not need to go back for 2 weeks for the next bloods. He is such a trooper :). He has come into our lives at just the right time.....
Back later maybe :)
Oh man we had some heavy rain and winds yesterday, and though its sunny now, the sky is getting darker by the minute.
I slept a bit better last night, thank god - today David is working and I am going to just relax and get some baby cuddles hopefully.
Not much else to report for now, in fact prob not much to report for the rest of the day :).
I thought I would sleep well, but in fact slept like crap..... I was awake at 4.45am ggggrrrrr.....
No real plans for today, I will have Isaac for an hour or so, as Steph has to take Eli in for bloods to check his bulbirin levels as he has JKa Antigens.
Apart from that not much else except change the sheets which is done :)
Fark it's windy out there.....
Just got back from taking Eli to get his blood drawn, he was a trooper and didn't even cry.... we were going to do it tomorrow cause it was so wet and windy out there, but the hospital wanted it done today...... the midwife has been and he has gained the weight back he lost in the first few days.... she was happy with his colouring so lets hope the bloods come back ok.
So now I am in my nighty and blobbing in front of the TV.
Thats me for today :).
Well after I pick up Isaac from Kindy this afternoon, he will be going to spend his first night at home with Eli, Mum and Dad....... I hope it goes well for them :). Its been a nice distraction having him here, though at nearly 4 years old he is pretty full on voice wise lol.
Todays plans not much at this stage.... housework I suppose lol.
Housework done, Isaac home, cuddles with baby done and now I am just relaxing and enjoying the peace and quiet :).
Thats me for today, catch you all tomorrow :)
OMG this stress is doing my head in...... I just feel so tired mentally. One more week next week, while I wait for the biopsy results and then hopefully the only stress will be dad.... who is really struggling with the lack of movement and pain in his arm.....
Isaac stayed last night and did so well, considering he spent the afternoon with mum, dad and Eli. He will stay tonight and then stay tomorrow night at his home and we will go from there :).
Thats it from me for now....
I have just finished re-arranging the lounge, what a job and how much dust accumulates in 6 months well prob 7 months now lol.
Anyway I am going to sign off today as I have to get Isaac soon, and want some lunch first :)
Isaac is back at kindy, for the next 3 days....
Steph and Eli came home last night, and the night went ok considering...... I am doing drop off and pick up for Isaac at kindy for the next few weeks, when he is home from kindy, he will go and spend some time with Mum, Dad and Eli, then all going to plan is he will stay here tonight and tomorrow night, then Thursday after kindy he will go home for the nights again......
Dogs went to the groomers today, and they look and smell so nice :).
Purchased a booster seat yesterday and turned Isaacs car seat back into a newborn carseat. Oh man though I love our Toyota Corolla, the back seats are so small for a newborn carseat......
Today need to go out and get some sheets for Steph's co-sleeper, and see if I can find any sheets to fit our portacot we are using temporally.
Eli is doing ok, not feeding the best, so may have to stay another nigh in SCBU, she said he was such a quiet baby, till now when he has found his lungs lol. He has to go for weekly blood tests for at least 6 weeks (once he is home), and midwife needs to visit regularly to keep an eye on the jaundice, as being a JKa baby he can turn really quickly, we have to go back to hospital if we see a decrease on his movements/lethargic or colour change in his skin.
Just been out and got the co-sleeper sheets so in the wash now, still not sure if coming home today or not....
Today we got to spend some more time with baby and Steph.... he is tiny and adorable, and looks just like Isaac when he was a baby.....
His jaundice is not to bad, not getting worse so thats good, if the next 24 hours go fine, then hopefully he can come home tomorrow. Steph got discharged today, but she stays in a special area by SCBU, while he is in there :).
Back later....
Well baby is born yesterday, just on 6lbs (I think) - he is now currently in Special care Baby Unit, and on antibiotics.... he also has the JKa antigen.... not sure what that involves now.... they are watching now to see if he needs lights etc....
Hoping to take Isaac to meet him today :)
Not a lot else to report right now......
We got to visit baby today, Steph is struggling, not having baby with her. He is so tiny, and looks just like Isaac did, Isaac was a bit tinier, I think this baby is just 5 1/2 lbs.
Anyway not much else to say, pics will come in a few days well maybe 1 photo.....
I am buggered, no matter how much I sleep, I am always tired...
Steph's car is still home, so didn't go into labour.
Today is a holiday for some.... David is off, but is doing overtime tomorrow. Oh today is 'Matariki Day'
Isaac wants to make pancakes later, so I suppose we will lol.
Oh and why do they have the maternity ward, so far away in the hospital, its like a maze trying to find the bloody place.....
Thats me for now.....
And baby boy is here, mum and bubs doing well :)
Tomorrow is a day off for some people, Chris and his partner are coming down all going to plan. Steph had a rough night with cramping, but has come to nothing, she will be 38 weeks on Saturday, they were initially not going to let her go past 38 weeks, but her antibody bloods have come back low and baby is very active, so at this stage they are going to let nature take its course :)
This morning, I have changed our sheets, and currently doing washing, and moped the floors, so all jobs are now done for the week :).
So does that mean I might do some gaming, well planning too but lets see what happens :)
Oh I also finally got around to planting the Mandarin tree, but need a bit more soil, so this weekend, we might go and get another one and some more soil :).
Last night the dogs went ballistic, went to check what they were barking at, and outside was a hedgehog... finally managed to get the dogs back inside and the hedgehog took off in a hurry :).
Anyway back later :)
Well Steph ended up bleeding and went into hospital, luckily it was not the placenta which they thought it was, they are going to keep her in overnight, at one stage we thought baby would be here tonight ot tomorrow but prob not now...
Anyway I am buggered so catch you all tomorrow, have Isaac here for the night :).
Another day.... yesterday did no gaming, just was not in the mood, did a little rearranging in the gaming room again though :).
I slept a couple of hours asleep yesterday afternoon, I hardly ever do that, just felt a bit off.... think everything is feeling overwhelming..... I keep thinking come 1st week of July baby will be here, will have my results back and all will be clear.... and dad improves, well thats what I hoping :). In reality I know dad will not get better but the other two hopefully will :).
Housework done, changing Isaac's bedding as Chris and his partner are coming down on Friday for one night.
Here is a photo of my 2nd grandson, could be here any day :).
Catch you tomorrow :)
First thing drop Isaac of at kindy, he had a good night, asleep by 7.15pm and up at 6.30am, lucky I am a morning person.
Its funny now I have my biopsy appointment, its got me feeling nervous, I am so glad the wait is less than 2 weeks away, and hopefully by the end of that week I should have got the results. That will be a stressful week I am sure...
Other than dropping Isaac off, I have no real plans, no housework today, did it all yesterday for today, maybe just a day of gaming, oh and purchased a book on my kindle, might just even do some reading outside if it warms up :).
Back later :)
Was dropping Isaac and for winter could not believe the amazing blue sky out there, I had to take a photo.... just stunning the sky today :).
Back later maybe :)
Today Steph has another scan, I will be having Isaac, and also Indycar race is 12pm today yay.......
The shortest day of the year is so close yay, though I have not really felt this Autumn has been cold, I am excited about the extra few seconds of light in the evening lol.
I am so hoping today I will hear about my biopsy appointment.
Washing is on, and housework done :).
Oh made Split Pea Soup yesterday, it was ok, think it is missing something, am going to freeze some and we will have some tonight as well, so dinner sorted :).
I will prob add something to it tonight, it was still nice but just need to add some thing to make it pop :).
Anyway thats all from me for now :)
Well biopsy booked for 2 weeks today in Hamilton.... I am glad it is not to far away... then one week for results :)
Anyway Isaac is here tonight, so I am signing off for the day :)
Today is grocery day and Indycar, well I recorded it the practice, but forgot to record the qualifying ggggrrrrr. Well judt watching Practice 1 and it is raining so delayed, but the good thing I can fast forward till the Practice (if it went ahead). Well I am fast forwarding that, lets talk something else.... like?
Oh I didn't hear from the place that does biopsies, so hopefully tomorrow, they did say I should have heard by last Friday.....
Oh today I slept in till nearly 8am, I slept 9 hours and 21 min, god knows when I last did this...... David slept on the couch for me with the puppies, so I could get a good night :). I am feeling so much better for it :).
Oh and another thing, I never notice how cold it is out there, cause when I am inside it is always warm, and still wear summer clothes but I go outside and realise that it is not quite as warm out there. I didn't realise how well the thermal heating is :).
Oh I didn't miss qualifying, its on now :)
Today I made well making split pea soup in the crockpot, it smells lovely got a while to go yet though :)
Groceries done as well :)
Catch you all tomorrow :)
Today is the Dutch Market here in Rotorua, so will be going to that. Need to get some Dutch spices :).
Am feeling a little bit better today, not quite so stressed as baby dad has come down for the birth, which midwife said could be anytime from now, baby is ready. Isaac is happy to have his dad back down :).
Anyway back later :)
Today has been good, went to the Dutch Market, then came home played Nintendo Switch and Xbox, loved the peace and quiet, David was at work....
Not the best of photos, but here is Mario Cart World....
Tomorrow not much planned except for groceries :).
And thats my day - catch you tomorrow :).
Whoops forgot to come back yesterday with my photo, once Isaac got here the night was full on.....
Whoops again been a busy day, was hoping today to have heard about my appointment in Hamilton, they said today but still nothing :(.
Anyway a little post today and again no photo..
Catch you tomorrow :)
Well last night I slept like crap.... god knows why, well I think it was because I was so sure, I would have been given the clearance yesterday.... as on the phone call they said they didn't think I would need a biopsy. The good thing is if it is cancer, it will only be grade 0 or 1, which is the best possible outcome I could have :). Oh and its only a 20% chance it is cancer :)
Onto other things, my friend is coming to get her nails done today, then after that I think Isaac is coming for the night, just going to be one night this time.
Not sure about the rest of the day, a little housework maybe :).
Today is the day, by lunchtime today, I will have hopefully heard that all is good, see I am positive :). I had been ok most of the last few days, but last night I starting freaking out.....
Anyway thats about all I have to say for now, be back later with good news I am sure :)
Well no real update at this stage, diagnostic mammogram done plus Ultrasound, plus saw Dr and the Breast Surgeon, now I have to go for a biopsy in Hamilton, should hear by Friday when the appointment is. Wont be for at least a couple of weeks to a month away, so still in limbo. They are still thinking the calcifications are benign. They are doing a stereotactic breast biopsy.
Anyway I am sure this will be it for now or even today :)
Today first thing, well at 9am, drop Isaac of at kindy..... oh man this kid can not shut up, though I don't mind most of the time, by last night bedtime, I was over his voice, dreading the 'why' stage which has sort of started lol. Breakfast was easy for him, left over pikelets/pancakes with maple syrup :).
Then come home, whoops just remembered, need to pick up prescription after dropping him off. Then home to do a bit of housework and dip in the thermal pool, my arthritic wrist has been so sore, extra pain meds are not even cutting it.
Thats it for now :)
The house is so quiet, but I love it......
Today I have been keeping myself busy pottering.... going to to have a soak in the thermal pool soon :)
Well this time tomorrow, the results if no cancer will be in, I should find out straight away if it's not cancer, at this stage they are doing another diagnostic mammogram and an ultrasound, from there they will decide if a biopsy is needed. They are thinking it wont be needed :)
Catch you tomorrow :)
Today Isaac is still here, and hopefully tonight as well, we got our Mandarin tree yesterday. will pot it this week its a dwarf one, so will only grow max 2.5 Meters, might get another one next weekend :).
2 sleeps till my diagnostic mammogram, I am feeling pretty positive about it all now, that it will be nothing, and feeling a lot less nervous, its not constantly on my brain thank god. Besides what will be will be, I can't change anything :).
Today's plans, just do stuff with Isaac, play, make pancakes for lunch and whatever else :).
Catch you later, need to do a photo of the day :).
Well later large pikelets/or small pancakes was made.... Isaac enjoyed them for lunch..... his had chocolate chips in them and maple syrup.
Anyway going to sign off for the day, catch you all tomorrow :).
Today, well this afternoon Isaac will come and hopefully stay the night, in fact I am hoping two nights but who knows :).
Today's plans groceries, and maybe some Nintendo Switch 2, but more then likely not with Isaac here :). Did't play yesterday either :).
Speaking of Switch here is my photo of the day :).
Anyway back later, 3 days till my Mammogram, Ultrasound and possible biopsy, all going to plan I will know on the day if all is ok :)
Well today, we are planning to go to 'The Gouda Cheese' shop in Hamilton. Have the chilly bin ready and the ice packs ready, wont go till later on in the day (think its open till 5pm, but will ring up and confirm), as its quite icy out there.
Just want to keep busy, then I am going to come home and game :).
And thats about it for me for now :)
Well we did in fact go to Hamilton and went to The Gouda Cheese shop, it has new owners and it had half the amount of stock, hopefully once they get used to it, more stock will come back in.
We are now back home.... and today was a nice distraction. Oh and we stopped of at Tirau for an ice-cream and fudge :).
And the rest of the day is going to be playing with my Nintendo Switch :).
Catch you tomorrow :)
Friday, though it feels like a Saturday for some reason - it is Friday isn't it?, didn't get to play much Nintendo Switch yesterday.... Ended up being a busy day and I also had Isaac for a bit etc.... but I did set it all up :)
So todays plan, have a really good play on it today, after I have video chatted Dad, and done the vacuum cleaning :).
Dinner is left over Macaroni Cheese and it was so yummy, and its even nicer the next day :).
Hmmmmm now to think of today's photo.....
Back later :).
8.08am and washing in the dryer, vacuuming done - now just waiting on dad which won't be for a while :).
Well today didn't go as planned - first up photo of the day.....
I got a call from the mammogram place, well the place they get the results from, and I have to go back on Wednesday for an other mammogram and ultrasound, I know its more than likely nothing serious but it is still stressful.......
Between this, my dad, who is not doing well at all and Steph and her high risk pregnancy...... I am feeling bloody stressed.
So thats me for the day, going to play some Nitendo Switch soon :)
Catch you tomorrow :)
Whoo hoo today is the day I pick up my Nintendo Switch 2.... am I little excited hell yeah. Will probably go out about 9ish..... Guess what today's photo be off lol.
Housework all done, washing on, going to make Macaroni Cheese for dinner. The rest of the time after I have videoed Dad will be playing with my new toy lol.
Back later :)
Isaac dropped off at kindy, Switch 2 got, purchased 2 games, and Mario Cart World comes with the switch. Just finished videoing dad, and about to prep the Macaroni Cheese, then I can set it up and play :)
Catch you more than likely tomorrow :)
The electrician is arriving at 8.30am, David will be here as I have to drop Isaac off at kindy and pick up a few groceries.... the electrician will be back at some stage, as we want to change out some lightings out and get a new stove and oven in. I want to get an induction cooktop and an oven that works well. But that wont be for a while yet.....
Then we need to get a plumber in for a job....
Another few days of rain coming, and the temperature is going to drop....... but hey the shortest day of the year is so near :).
Isaac will be going home today.....
Ohhhh and tomorrow morning the new Nintendo Switch is coming out....
Back later....
Electrician been and gone, I have such a routine and with my OCD, it does my head in when my routine is out, for example I couldn't start the washing this morning, cause the power would have to be turned off etc....
I still didn't get in the pool might go in tonight, who knows.... its windy out there, it is in a room though.... my knee and wrist is killing me the last few days.
Am going to try and post a photo every day, know reason really just because :).
Today's photo our lemon tree :). Ignore the fence, we are going to redo it....
Catch you tomorrow :).
I keep thinking its Monday..... but its Tuesday....Far out it is possible Stephs baby will come this month, everything depends on scans/blood tests/blood pressure..... on when he will arrive :)
Housework has been done, now not sure what the rest of the day will bring, will be in the thermal pool for sure......
Isaac is staying tonight, well I think so at this stage, will be picking him up from kindy.
And thats it from now....
Well decided to re=swatch all my gel polishes, didn't quite get them done, before I had t pick Isaac up from kindy, have about 10 more to do tomorrow.
Electrician is coming back tomorrow to put a bigger light in the garage and fix 2 plugs in the sunroom.
No pool today, but will go in tomorrow for sure :). Dad had a really bad night last night, they are getting worse and worse pain wise now, and his lymph nodes are starting to bleed again. He has the district nurse that come's daily, I am struggling right now on where to be, feeling pulled between Steph and Dad...... he told me to stay here and put my family first, but just feel guilty......
Anyway off to spend some time with the grandson :)
Catch you tomorrow :)
Up at 4am to watch Indycar....
Dads visit went good, did some stuff for him and groceries.....
Today not sure what we are doing, maybe get a Mandarin tree, we are missing citrus trees here...
Oh have a bit of housework to do, it's a public holiday and it's Monday which I forgot, keep thinking its a Sunday.....
Back at some stage maybe....
Been for a long soak in the thermal pool, to help with the pain in my wrist and knee..... think I might try to get in it daily.
Anyway thats me for today, catch you tomorrow :)
Today we are off to dad's to do his grocery shopping and a couple of outdoor things..... I wont be able to go as much soon as with baby coming etc, I want to be here for Steph......
I have not done nails for months (my own), but think tomorrow I might do my nails....
Weigh In - 1 kilo down this month, slowly but surly going down, very slow lol. My goal is just to weigh less at the end of the year..... nealry 32 kilos (70 lbs) down from my highest weight.
Did I game yesterday - NO :(, Steph and Isaac popped in to show me some baby stuff she purchased :). Its starting to get real, and though it is still high risk, we know the worst is over and baby has made it to 35 weeks safely.
Anyway may or may not be back later :)
